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She would have turned 29 today.

I missed her birthday last year.

Happy birthday. I miss you.

中文

Few things irk me more than when some random Chinese person assumes that Standard Mandarin Chinese is the only Chinese language that exists or matters. Like when I mess up speaking it and they go "Tut tut, ABC kid losing their heritage!" Or when they find out that I (who studied it for years in university) can speak it at all and my brother cannot, and they go, "I knew you were the older child, because you can still speak Chinese!" Fuck you, bitch, Putonghua ain't my people's language. Do you speak Cantonese? No? Why do you suck?????

Updates

I've put off writing for so long.

Here are some things that have happened.

On the guzheng

I learned and finished 雪山春晓 (Spring Morning on a Snowy Mountain).

I even finished 春到湘江 (The Arrival of Spring on Xiang River). It is a long, long, long way from being perfected, but this is the hard piece I said it'd take me forever to actually play here.

I got together with my groupmates last December (2017) and we even played some songs together; it was a dream come true. We were even going to play one piece at a performance but it fizzled out and never happened.

I was invited to play (solo) at some local community events. The first one is in one and a half weeks and it'll be my first time playing in front of an audience for over a decade.

On life

My good friend and former roommate passed away. This was the largest event of 2018 for me, and really cemented it in being pretty awful. I still think about her all the time. I might write more on this later.